She saved my world alot, part 1 of many...
Aurora's service has come and gone. Yesterday I went to see her. I can't describe in words the absolute pain I felt when the fact she was gone slapped me in the face in the viewing room. I want to be able to go into so much more detail, but I don't know how to put everything I am feeling into words. I'm glad I went, I needed the closure and the time alone with her.Someone told me that everything would get easier once we had the service and had some closure. That person lied. It gets harder. We kept busy planning the service. We were surrounded by our family and friends. Then Tuesday came, and all we had left is the overwhelming feeling that Aurora is gone. Then we have to figure out how to go on with our life knowing that. If only the world would stop for all of us while we mourn the loss of our friend, our sister, our best friend, our daughter, our cousin, our niece.
I went back to work yesterday after seeing Aurora. Everyone at my job has been wonderful, they are more than just my colleagues, every single one of them truly cares about every other person who works there. It is an amazing feeling. There was not a single person who hasn't done everything they possibly can to at least try to keep my mind off of things so the day will pass quicker.
I'm back in school as well. That is not as easy. It's hard to focus. My mind wanders off to thinking about Aurora. So far tonight though I have only had to leave class once.
I probably will be posting more often now. I have alot to work through. I also want to try to post memories of Aurora as they come to me. There are so many I have from the past 5 years I have known her. I am so thankful that she was there with Nathan and I when we got married, and I am so glad that even for a brief time I was able to call her my sister officially, even though we acted like sisters so long before it was official.
Aurora and I drove to California so she could see a specialist for the tumor in her finger, and we got to UCLA really early so we decided to get breakfast. We found this cute looking cafe just down the street from the hospital and began looking for a parking spot. We found one on the street just behind the resturant. We both read the sign next to the parking space out loud, it read:
NO PARKING
Fridays
8:00 a.m. - 10 a.m.
for street cleaning
Violators will be fined or towed.
We got out of the car, walked around the corner to the restaurant and had a great breakfast. When we finished and walked back to the car, there was a ticket on my windshield. We immediately got really mad, we were ranting about the unfairness, reading the sign out loud again. I opened the ticket and it said "parking violation" and noted "parking during restricted time." Aurora and I both looked up at the sign again, and at the same time, looked back at each other, and said, "IT'S FRIDAY!"
posted by Aimee @ 8:57 PM
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