I don't have to talk to myself anymore...
When I am alone in the car now, I talk to Aurora. It's really not as crazy as it sounds. But I am sure that the people driving around me wonder why I am talking and no one is there.
We went out to Carluccio's tomight for dinner for my birthday. It was a pretty big group, and it was fun, but I was sad too. MattMatt did a great job planning - he got 14 of my friends and family to dinner on a few hours notice. Afterwards we went to Champagne Cafe and had a couple of drinks. Nathan and I are going out in the morning when he gets home from work.
I finished writing both papers and all of my classes are done. I have one final - a week from Monday and then I am officially done with law school. Words cannot even express my excitement. Of course it won't last long - I have bar prep starting soon after.
I missed Aurora ALOT today. We were so excited for me to be done with school so we could spend more time together. It seems like just when I think its getting a little less horrible than the day before, something knocks the wind out of me and I just get sad and want to curl up and cry.
Thank you to everyone who came to my birthday celebration - it meant alot to me to be surrrounded by friends.
Just an update...
Since I am trying to update more often, I thought I would update on the fact that I won't be able to update for the next week or so very regularly. Here is my update:
- I have a presentation for my intellectual property class on protecting the traditional knowledge of the indigenous people of the United States on Monday.
- I have to do a presentation for my employment law class on determining what constitutes a major life activity for purposes of the Americans with Disabilities Act on Tuesday.
- I have to finish my final draft of each of the above papers by Friday.
- Brian is in town visiting.
- My birthday is this weekend - and I am hoping to get to California to visit my dad and take a trip to Ikea.
- I have a final in one of my employment law classes on May 8th.
- My entire family is coming into town on May 11th for my graduation.
- I still have not purchased my cap, gown, and hood (yes I am going to be hooded!).
- Becki told me last night that Aurora never did ask that girl at Melting Pot whether she was going to sleep with the annoying guy.
- I had Indian food last night and Original House of Pancakes this morning. It was a weekend filled with Aurora tested and approved food.
- I saw Silent Hill today and it was neither scary or remotely good - in fact I should have used the time to sleep like Brian.
- My last day of law school classes EVER is on Tuesday.
- My last final for law school EVER is May 8th.
- I am so incredibly excited about graduating.
- I am dreading my birthday because I will not be celebrating it with Aurora.
- I am glad that out of all of this, April and I have started to become closer.
and finally, a very large thank you to all of my family and friends who have been so incredibly supportive and kept me busy and laughing.
Good night everyone!
Love you Aurora...
It came to me on the way to work this morning...
This morning on the way to work I was thinking about calling Becki to see if she wanted to hang out and I remembered a VERY funny Aurora story. Becki, Aurora, and I went to The Melting Pot for dinner and since we didn't make reservations, we sat in the bar area to eat. There was a couple at the next table that appeared to be on their first date and the guy was really annoying. As the guy drank more he got even more annoying. It seemed apparent to everyone except the girl with him that he assumed that because he spent money on dinner and drinks that he was getting laid that night. Having to listen to this guy all night, we all agreed he really had no redeeming qualities - personally or physically. As well as being drunk, he was so loud it was like he was at the table with us.
Becki, Aurora, and I are commenting on the fact that this guy does not deserve to get laid, and we are very curious as to whether this girl is falling for his crap. So the guy goes to the bathroom and we come up with a plan. We tell Aurora if she asks the girl if she is going to sleep with the guy, we will pay for her movie. Becki and I walk outside and Aurora leans over to the girl, asks her how her dinner was and starts up a conversation with her. The girl confirms they are on a first date and offers the fact that she thinks the guy is interesting and funny, and very nice. Aurora asks her, "So are you going to have sex with him then?" Apparently the girl looked confused and couldn't quite say anything, but if memory serves I think she told Aurora that she wasn't sure and it wasn't her business. Aurora practically ran out of the restaurant to relay the story and we laughed so hard we couldn't breathe.
She saved my world alot, part 1 of many...
Aurora's service has come and gone. Yesterday I went to see her. I can't describe in words the absolute pain I felt when the fact she was gone slapped me in the face in the viewing room. I want to be able to go into so much more detail, but I don't know how to put everything I am feeling into words. I'm glad I went, I needed the closure and the time alone with her.
Someone told me that everything would get easier once we had the service and had some closure. That person lied. It gets harder. We kept busy planning the service. We were surrounded by our family and friends. Then Tuesday came, and all we had left is the overwhelming feeling that Aurora is gone. Then we have to figure out how to go on with our life knowing that. If only the world would stop for all of us while we mourn the loss of our friend, our sister, our best friend, our daughter, our cousin, our niece.
I went back to work yesterday after seeing Aurora. Everyone at my job has been wonderful, they are more than just my colleagues, every single one of them truly cares about every other person who works there. It is an amazing feeling. There was not a single person who hasn't done everything they possibly can to at least try to keep my mind off of things so the day will pass quicker.
I'm back in school as well. That is not as easy. It's hard to focus. My mind wanders off to thinking about Aurora. So far tonight though I have only had to leave class once.
I probably will be posting more often now. I have alot to work through. I also want to try to post memories of Aurora as they come to me. There are so many I have from the past 5 years I have known her. I am so thankful that she was there with Nathan and I when we got married, and I am so glad that even for a brief time I was able to call her my sister officially, even though we acted like sisters so long before it was official.
Aurora and I drove to California so she could see a specialist for the tumor in her finger, and we got to UCLA really early so we decided to get breakfast. We found this cute looking cafe just down the street from the hospital and began looking for a parking spot. We found one on the street just behind the resturant. We both read the sign next to the parking space out loud, it read:
NO PARKING
Fridays
8:00 a.m. - 10 a.m.
for street cleaning
Violators will be fined or towed.
We got out of the car, walked around the corner to the restaurant and had a great breakfast. When we finished and walked back to the car, there was a ticket on my windshield. We immediately got really mad, we were ranting about the unfairness, reading the sign out loud again. I opened the ticket and it said "parking violation" and noted "parking during restricted time." Aurora and I both looked up at the sign again, and at the same time, looked back at each other, and said, "IT'S FRIDAY!"
Aurora's Memorial Service
I know a lot of people are posting this - but we are trying to cover as much ground as possible.
Monday, April 17, 2006 @ 11:00am
Palm West Mortuary1600 S. Jones Blvd. (Jones and Oakey)
(702) 464-8420
***The family invites anyone attending to share their memories of Aurora at the service.***
